Thursday, May 29, 2008

more money more problems

That is total BS.

Friday, May 23, 2008

not gonna

i am so tired of crying. i cry so often. i cried when mary j blige played Not Gon' Cry.

I am in need of some changes in my life. it's so hard to know where to start. so i'm starting with my job.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Utz Grandma Chips Suck

To Whom It May Concern:

I’m writing to report my complete dissatisfaction with Grandma Utz Potato Chips. I recently purchased a bag and was disgusted by the taste. The chips barely even tasted like they were from potatoes. They tasted like eggs and/or soap.

I am a very big fan of Utz and was very disappointed by this. I’ve come to count on Utz for high quality, affordable and delicious chips - which I certainly didn’t receive when I bought Utz Grandma chips.

My household loves Utz – we even have Utz magnets on our refrigerator purchased from the factory! However, we were all VERY disappointed by the Grandma chips. We almost felt betrayed. So much so I felt compelled to write this letter.

I’ve included my proof of purchase with this letter.

Jen May

Monday, May 19, 2008

little stressors

Tomorrow I have an UNPAID trial day decorating fancy cakes. Unpaid? How shitty. But, whatever. We'll see how that goes. Then Wednesday I have an interview for a job editing images.

Neither of these things seem like anything I totally want to be doing. I have no idea what I want to be doing, though. And maybe they'll be/seem OK. I have no idea. I am feeling stressed.

the tiniest things can set off anxiety. I have to take a shuttle bus home? Oh god.

I need some kind of change. Maybe these jobs will help. I have no idea. I wonder if I should move but I have no idea where to.

Working in Manhattan seems like a bummer. That's where both prospects are.

What does one wear for a trial cake decorating day? Jeans, right?

Thursday, May 15, 2008


1. Take frequent bathroom breaks.
2. In the bathroom take really big relaxing breaths.
3. Splash your face with cold water.
4. Try not to count down the hours until you leave
5. (This may prove to be almost impossible)
6.Try to be "in the moment". Focus on exactly what you're doing.
7.Only do # 6 if what you're doing won't make you cry immediately.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

yeah right

I am SO not calling the book I'm working on what I said I was in the last post. WOOF. What was I thinking?

tentative titles taken from pages are;
99 problems
the full impact
bigger everyday


I'm feeling good about it, which is unusual. Maybe I am channeling my complete disdain for my job and current working and sometimes lyfe situation and focusing on creating? Not really. Whatever.

I've also been thinking about what will happen when I finish this book. Or any book or anything like that. I mail it to people who probably don't want it and maybe make them feel uncomfortable? What for? I know it's an attempt to connect but is it weird? Or unfair? Will anything ever come of it?

What else? Oh, there's this -

Monday, May 12, 2008


I'm trying to put together a book I have been wanting to put together for months. It will be called something like "A Book About being a Young Woman living in New York having No Money and A Cat."

which is basically my life. It's coming a long a little bit. I think.

I also committed to having an in progress book on mostly music stuff ready by the end of the month..

Other things I am trying to do;
Make videos on the regular
Catch Sadie when she's tired enough to let me cut her nails.
Find a new job.
Think about comedy things.
there was something else...

anyway, have you seen this?
By Me & Megan

Wednesday, May 07, 2008